Hemingway has his classic moment in "The Sun Also Rises" when someone asks Mike Campbell how he went bankrupt.
All he can say is, "Gradually, then suddenly."
That's how depression hits. You wake up one morning, afraid that you're gonna live.
- prozac nation

Thursday, August 28, 2008

again i drown myself in pain...



so the panic sets in cycles
while the blood sucking leeches contaminate every line they read
it’s like i’m falling asleep with my eyes open and shutting down over nothing
so let me drown so i can breathe again, i’m through choking and suffocating on alter egos and ultimatums…
you broke me down and now i'm broken; and it’s sadder than the saddest movie i ever saw, but without the blood.
so now i’m living a life of eternal fear, but it’s better than suburban dreaming
any day of the week...